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OMG.....IT's been a long time...

2006-07-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

Back by popular demand( as if), i'm back here again. It's really been a long time since i last written anything here. Looking at the last date..... 9 months passed! Stunning. Whats worst is, i'm no where diff from where i was the last time i wrote anything. National service is really driving ppl crazy. Its like a PAUSE button been bestowed on you, preventing you from going any further.

Haiz......plus....no money!!! Very poor.Every month only $390! Learning driving now.....have to ask dad to sponsor, if not i no money eat liao. Anyone interested in dancing? LIke MTV style or Hip Hop? Let me know....pls....so that at the very least i can accomplish something before i ORD. If not, i would have kind of wasted this 2 years.

ANd yes, would like to apologise to all friends that i kind of left out. We see each other online every other day but never really keep in contact. Haha.....wonder the msn is for wat sia....

And lastly, life is getting a bit boring...EVery weekend the only thing i can think of is to play pool with friends or play MMORPG at home. Seldom watch movies nowadays too. Long time haven't been to the beach also. Would like to go there see see someday. It is really because of NS, i have no time? Or am i too tired...to do anything else....HELP!! LOL....When is this gonna change? Wish me luck .....

ClubbinG?

2005-10-30T21:29:00.000+08:00

Been clubbing for some time now.... though its really enjoying at times but i start to feel that something is missing. Wonder wat that means. The first one or two hours is always enjoyable, but after a while it seems to get a bit sianzzz. Music played at clubs plays an essential role in entertaining people. If the music sucks, i tell ya i confrim sianzz till max. WEnt to quite a few places, for example China Black, Liquid Room, Indochine, Rouge, Newsroom Bar and O bar. Yet to Zouk out cos its really ex to go there. Ya, i agree clubbing is really expensive. So for a month i shall forbid myself from going to clubs.

Life is still the same, going camp and going back home. Everyday spend three hours just on travelling. Anyway i'm still on course, finishing the first part in December, i hope. There's a high chance that it might extend. Cos we are really behind time here. Haizz....its damn freaking far. Travelling really tire me out.

Had a long weekend. I took off on friday and went back to TPJC. School is still the best. Saw and chat with most of the teachers that i know of. They seem to be doing fine. Ms Chua my bio teacher is getting married. And she promised to ask us over to her house in December. Quite cool ya? After that i went to Kbox with Khoi Mun, my classmate in JC. Well we went back to sch together that's why. He had two of his juniors, female juniors i mean to join us for the session. One of them can really sing, she's from choir. The other one is gd at singing too but she's kind of quiet. Nvm them, i enjoyed singing after months( i mean half a year) ever since i started to serve the nation.

For those who are reading this and you are above 18, and feel like watching some crap movie, do try watching the 40 year old virgin. Its crap but still really nice and funny. But i'm afraid its not showing anymore since its been around for quite sometime le. Well thats all for this entry. See ya guys around.....

Interesting...

2005-09-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

The whole of last week i guess was the slackest till date. Was at Air Force School for Airman Orientation Programme(AOP). The course is almost all about lectures. No test no nothing, so it's quite relaxing. The best thing is, it's located just some bus stops away from my house. So? i can wake up late, reach home early. Too bad, all good things has to end. Starting next week i'll be back at Tengah Airbase. Soon my course for AVS would finally start.

Well the real reason i'm writing this is because there's yet again something i would like to share with everyone. Here's what i've heard from one of the speakers during AOP:

There's once a professor with a pail full of rocks on the table asked, ' Is the pail full or is it not?' They all answered 'yes!'. Then the professor started to pour in a packet of pebbles, and surprisingly everything went in. He asked again. Like before, his students are confident that the pail is now indeed full. However, the professor proceeded to pour sand into the pail. Now the students are confused. To make things worst, the professor started pouring in water till the water level reaches the brim. Was the pail really full in the beginning?

Morale of the story: The rocks are our dreams. The pebbles are our love life, family and friends. Sand? Our entertainment... Water are the little little things around us. The pail : OUR LIFE. While pursuing our own dreams, do not just rush forward. There's always time for everything, love life, friends and families. Without them, our life wouldn't be FULL too. So, for those aiming so high and working so hard, do no forget, you still have time for other things. Just like the pail, it's not full YET.....

I got my first license!!!

2005-08-22T20:19:00.000+08:00

Guess waT?... I got my driving license last tuesday! .... Now i'm qualified to drive CLass 3 and Class 4 vehicles! But the sad thing is...only military ones..LOL. That means i can't touch civilian cars at aLL. Sianzz....So wats the use of getting this license...SAd huH? Can drive tonners and mini bus, watever you can think of la in the military. CAn drive but i'm not a driver by vocation. SO? CAnnot touch them either....Can only stick to those aviation vehicles. CAn't say much bout' them, just sianzzzz...Life is the same once back at the airbase after my driving course. The only difference is i can book out everyday once more. HohoHo. Can't really celebrate though, cos the airbase is freaking far away from my house. CAn't do much even if i get to go home everyday.

Hmm....well that's all for now. Once i thought of something interesting to write about, I'll be BACK! Cya~!

Adjusting to life and finding myself...

2005-07-31T12:09:00.000+08:00

Hohohoho, i'm back here writing stuffs again! Hmm.....i would say that "time" seemed to have stopped at this moment. All cos of NS, but now i'm fine with it. Looking at the title, you should be able to guess, i'm adjusting and quite fine with NS life now. It is just that now life is still quite confusing for me, a 19 year old boy/man. LOL. Something is definitely wrong with me but even i myself can't decipher wat the heck it is. I think the sole reason for this confusion is how i live my life while i was still in sec. and JC. IN sec sch, as many know, I was a serious and strict Head prefect. IN jC, i was a cockster, always pon lessons and slack around. In the end i don't know which side of me is better. STill in the process in finding myself. One which i would really be happy. Be a slacker or a chiongster? We shall see in the near future ba....

LifE NoWaDays.....

2005-07-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

Impressively, almost one month had passed since my POP. Now everything has already settled down. Those at OCS and SISPEC suffer there, while others like me slack around and do fatique job now and then. Two years going to pass by just like that. A bit of a waste huh? Nothing much i can do either. Now would like to learn new skills regarding spraying of paint on my newly bought and un-modelled gundams. Till date i have 6 (1/100) and 4 (1/144) gundams. Most of them are from gundam seed/destiny. Going to buy more Master Grades(MG) to build and enjoy since i have nothing better to do. Adding more to my collection would be fun. Sometimes i would just stare at those gundams that i have built. They really look nice...LOL. However this means i'm going to spend lots of money on them. The tools and paint plus the model itself cost a lot. One MG cost around 80 dollars unless you find some promotions somewhere. NOrmal 1/100 HighGrade(HG) ones are around 42 dollars. HG smaller ones are around 35 bucks. EX rite? PREFECT GRADE? $200 ++...OMG...NO money....
These days been only meeting up with JC friends to watch movie or play LAN. Secondary sch friends? Go out walk walk and talk cock .... nothing much too...REally spending a lot sia....ZZZ.... Dun know why....got the urge to go club one of these days....That also need money....
WHy am i talking about money and moneY? ZzzZzzZzz. Sianzzz.... $350 per month...nothing left when i minus my transport of around 120 bucks. HOW???? NExt pay check cannot anyhow spend. WAnt to go club .... want to buy new models and paint....OMG>>>>>> BROKE.... (Do i sound like WAng Chi? ...hmmm i wonder....)

My ePosting from BMTC

2005-06-18T01:51:00.000+08:00

Haiz.....What to do? No OCS, not even SISPEC. Really stunned when i looked at wat's written on the screen. Avivation Vehicle Spec. That was wat i saw for my new vocation at Tengah airbase. When i told my bunk mates bout my posting, they too are stunned. I asked them to guess,they say of cos OCS if not SISPEC. That's wat i thought too. But wat the F is this now? I really wonder. Written on the posting order, i was told that it is not required for me to bring the things issued in BMT except my PT kit. Whether if i need to stay in or not, i have to call and ask them. I did wat i was told to, a guy just told me, ' bring everything just in case'. WTF !!!! They dun even know?!?!? HOw slack could I be in the future. I'm confused. To be thankful or disappointed. Why on earth am i posted to somewhere so far and so different from my peers or bunk mates. ZzzZzzZzz. Guess i shouldn't have told them bout my ankle which sprains so F..ing easily. Haiz.... Wonder wat i'm supposed to do there.... SO far somemore.
Life seems f...ed up these days. No aim, no nothing. The only thing i know was spending money. ZzzZzzZzz. Saw zhi huai at indochine last sat. He SUPER DUPER clubber. Stunning sia. LOL. Didn't know he soooooo on one. LOL. Writing this post at Terence's house. Nothing better to do. Feel very low sia. That's why i went over to his house to stay over to talk cock. HohOho. Just like the old days. He's still a joker as always....Must slap.
In the past, i thought, by sleeping and not thinking about anything, the next day becomes better. I was wrong....Dun know why too. Like i said, in the past sleeping works fine with me. Now no. Fucked up....ZzzZzzZzz. LOL. HOW ?!!?!!? HOW!?!!?!?!? Future seems really blur now. Wonder wat will happen next. Did put in much effort in BMT, never chao keng at all. In the end? Still Fucked up posting.....WTF.........Nitesz....

AFter BTM

2005-06-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

WooHoo. End of BMT . Don't know if i should be happy or not. Cos this the the beginning of everything. Now it solely depends on where i'll be posted to. Hope i can get into OCS. COs the pay is really attractive. As long as you are a OCT(officer cadet trainee) we can get 700 plus cash monthly. It's the same pay seageants or specialists gets. Hohoho. Real good money....comes with real heavy responsiblilty. So money is one thing, training is yet another thing. Hope money will keep me going.LOL. That said, will wait till this coming friday for my posting. Cya then~!

P.S next post should be lengthy...got feeling to write longer next time...LOL

Army Life

2005-05-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, its me again. DArn tired these days. Sleep and sleep and sleep wouldn't make things anything better. Being in the army makes you lose touch with everything around you. The only thing that you know is training and more training. Finished both field camp and SIT test (situational test). Overall both sucked. LOL. During field camp, out of the seven days we had outfield, 5 of them were rainy days. The last night was the best. While sleeping in our self dug shell scrape, it rained cats and dogs at 3 in the morning. Didn't have much sleep and still had to go through the BIC. BIC - a course where you get yourself real tired - leopard crawl for 70 m with live rounds above your heads and lots of barbed wires or wat they call constantina wires. Who cares anyway? As long as you crawl through it, it is fine. Well that's all ... nitesz

Just Before Enlistment ... ... ...

2005-04-05T10:49:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone. It's me again. Today i shall post some things interesting that i'll wrote in the past.

Till the Very End

How was i suppose to know

How did i fall in love with you when our eyes first met

Then you didn't even notice my existence

Never did you express yourself

It was hurting inside out

Is that what we call love?

I believed in hope

And hope that 'hope' would eventually find me

I see the future ahead of me

Shining as bright as a star

But i chose to believe in that hope blindly

The hope that we could be together

That is why

I'll never leave you alone

Not a day of my life

Not even a second of my life

I'll always love you

Till the very end

(written on 19/12/03)

How's that? nice? hmmm.....now is something i'll written for everyone. Do take a look ....

Why Love is Blind?

Often you yourself or even your friends would ask,

What do you hope to look for in your other half?

You can imagine how special or how similar that person should be to you

Some might even find such a person within their own circle of friends

But does that mean that you two would be happily together since she is exactly what you wanted?

That might not be true

Cos you might not possess the qualities that the other is looking for in their own perspectives of a perfect guy.

To her you might not be the one they desire at first

But when you are in love with a person

Ask yourself why you love her

Is it because she is what you are looking for?

Or perhaps even you yourself can't explain why it happened?

Love is blind...

(written on 4/4/05)

How's it? Couldn't sleep yesterday night....was thinking about lots of things. Decided to write something. HAha....that's how this thingy is produced. In exactly two days time would be my time to get my NICE hair cut. Omg....still need to pay them 2 dollars for the job. Wat the heck sia....pay to get tortured...LOL. JK... Well it will be harder now to meet anyone from now on. Esp secondary sch friends....ZzzZzzZzz. Couldn't get some of them out these days. Think in the future would be even harder to meet you guys. All the best then to everyone including myself.

Haiz + Sianzzz

2005-02-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i wrote anything here. Many many things happened. Even finished a job that lasts almost two weeks long. During those two weeks, learn lots of things, got to know lots of new friends. But it was really tiring. Met some irreasonable managers, got an ineffective partner 'helping' me. For anyone who's wondering wat i worked as...... F&N Coca Cola Promoter. Promoter has to carry and serve the customers. When we re-stock, we have to carry hell lots of drinks of many diff flavours to the tentage and also replenish those inside of NTUC. Some even weigh up to 18Kg per carton. For me i was working at Marine Parade NTUC during the last few days. The first few days i was going around Singapore to setup the stations at NTUCs, SHOP and SAVEs and G values. Luckily not CArrefour or Sheng Siong. But marine parade is bad enough. People there seems to buy coke and use them to bath. Some people bought 40 cartons of Coca Cola (30 cans) from me. Hundreds of Pet bottles (1.5 litres) all sold in a flash. That scared me to death. Cos i need to replenish them at the rate that it's going. Was lucky to meet some funny managers or perm staff from coca cola. They helped me a lot. Made my time there enjoyable. If not i would die facing that blur helper of mine. Not sure how much i earned but i certainly spent a lot these days. Bought a Creative Zen micro, bought another three gundams. Went out with JC friends, with SEcondary sch friends. Each time we ate good food. Spent almost 800 hundred these 3 months.

Went Japan last December. Was a great exprience. People there are sooo nice. Bad thing is they can't speak english at all. Had troubles communicating. But it made the trip more interesting and worthwhile. Again, brought back 4 gundams from there. And that started my craze over them. Haha. Shouldn't have bought that many. Now can't stop le. Kept buying and buying. Now i have a total of 3 smaller ones and 5 bigger ones. That amount to over $200! Anyway, girls in Japan are really cute. Lots of chio bu. Love the food there. Any restaurant is better then anywhere here in Singapore selling Japanese food. But we are indeed quite close to their standard. Not like in other countries where they try to imitate our traditional dishes, they suck!

Going to army soon. Haiz, yet to fulfill something. On V day i actually went back to sch. Teachers are quite suprised to see me. One even gave me a hong bao. Went back with one of my JC class mate. He had lots of links with girls in sch. Kind of funny, just walk a few steps and he will see someone he knows or vice versa. And we sat down to talk a bit. So that day was like going back sch to look at girls more then going back sch to visit teachers. That said, means i still no gf.... sad huh?

So now must enjoy a bit. Work a bit more if there's anything for me. AFter that must go in everyday train liao....some say its fun. Some thought it was a waste of time. Wonder how would it feel for me...... Till next time. So Long~!

Hohoho....

2004-11-24T16:36:00.000+08:00

Got really bored.....so decided to come here to write something. Finally, all my worries will be gone soon. By tml i'll finish all my A level papers. HohoHO. Just like wat wee cheng said, ' All Hell let loose'. I really agree fully with him. Really well said don't you think? Made lots of good friends in JC. Hope to see them around in the future.

TO Hsi En, the always study study guy. Always remind me to study, ask me to go library to study with him. Thanks for that man, though i still never study at all. LOL. VEry cocky also. Always talk crap. Took me sometime to understand him. When i heard that he teared up his yellow book(chemistry guide bk), i thought we went mad. Lots of fun with him around.

To Jansen, same as Hsi en......but lesss hardworking..LOL. Loves to play tennis. In class always sing and listen to stupid songs....LOL. Talks cock and loves to make fun of people. Always scold vulgarities in a GAY way. Hear liao also du lan...LOL

To Terence that devil. Thanks for 'reminding' how to enjoy life. HE is indeed a real devil. Brings out all the desires you have, even those you tired really hard to control. Born to disturb people. REally good with girls too. Hohoho. Always make you want to slap him la.

TO vikram, the most pro CHI BAI KIA i know. i mean, his usage of vulgarities is too pro for even people like to compete with. LOves basketball. Unlike terence, is serious in doing things he love. Nice friend to have. CAn talk all sorts of things with this guy....

To menzies, the most mysterious guy i ever encounter till now. CAn't really see thru him. Always say never study.... but i know he cfm got study a bit. Never talk his heart out, i mean he never share any personal stories.....And this guy .... too lame to control. Guess he will have to find a girl as lame as him to ta han him....LOL.

To robert, two words. JUST DIE....LOL. No lar. This guy, have lots of dreams and wishes. Very emotional. Thinks too much, LOL. REally! . Robert ar, if you reading this, take note, things don't always go the way you imagine it to be. Dreams are dreams....Think and plan far is good, but don't overdo it k? The higher you climb, when you fall, the damage is far more then you can imagine.

To WAng Chi, eh.....try to make MORE friends...LOL. I noticed it ever since you entered our class, some people dun like the way you do things. But guess in the end our class turn out well.... Sometimes , to know more friends or to get along with others, you have to become like them, do wat they like and hate wat they dun like.

To fahmi, dun always talk cock la. Always give that blur face. But it was fun. Do spread more kaya on bread.....LOL.

Still got wHO> >>> omg....the almighty and handsome KHOI MUN, LOL. SOng bo?? the genius of our class. WE LOVE AND ADORE HIM. hohoho. Joking la, dun take it to heart. Anyway you are a great friend. But , BUT....try not to suan people till they no face. Many dun like tat.....hope you know that. If you do, i'm sure you will really be the most popular guy around.

To hakim. Great guy with great leadership...hohho. Class rep lay. wat you expect....zzzz....Play rugby tomorrow? you sure not....LOL. I'll try to make it la.

To the rest of the guys, one word, THANKS!....hohoho. I know its a bit unfair. But too much to write....my hands are tired liao. At least i list out the names....hohoho. BEnjamin, bastard or bitch i not sure.LOL. DIno.....or should i say dinosaur? REzal ? Firdaus... Azizul....Yong Guang( wat a gay pic!)...LOL.

To the girls in our class....dun know wat to say also. So many things happened. Anyway, good luck to you all in your future challengers.

Lastly, to our beloved Xian Liang, do watch over us K? hohohoho

That's all folks....ZzzZzzZzz

"Air" levels

2004-11-06T20:40:00.000+08:00

Hohoho, its been a long time since my last posting. Having lots of mixed feelings now. I aimed for As some months ago, but for now i guess getting into the course i want would be good enough....HAiz...dun know wat i thinking. That's why i came here to reflect on things. Next monday will be my very first 'fight' against chemistry. Hohoho, a 2 hours 45 minutes paper. Core topics and option topics all included. Its quite a pain in the ass to think of it. Then on tuesday, it gets worst. Biology Paper 2 followed by Mathematics paper 1 in the afternoon. Don't know if I can last that long...ZZzZzZzZ. By tonight have to finish most of my biology. If not, can't imagine wat will happen. Very sad indeed. I'm still playing gunbound nowadays. Don't know wat's wrong with me. After prelims i slacked like nobody's business, screwed up in both bio and chem practs. DAmn... WAT THE FFFFF....zzzzzzz...all this shit will be over soon i hope. HEard Air levels is the most stressing and F-up period of a student's life. I guess it true ba....

Writing a letter for the person you love....

2004-09-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching episode 23 of Aishiteruze Baby(anime)... in it they depict the magic of how a hand written letter to your loved one can make them happy. Interesting huh? Well personally, i feel that i'm better at expressing myself by writing then by conversations. Cos i'm a shy boy...lol. Since young, i'm scared to answer phone calls or calling others. I'm even more scared when i'm trying to order food in a food court. Stunned ? HAaha...it's damn true. Can check with my dad...HOhoHO. I'm even more shy in relationships..... the kind of tense feeling that i felt when that someone is near can kill me...lol. But somehow i survived everytime, no matter how embarrassing or how annoying it is...hohoho. But definitely i was deeply hurt everytime. Guess i'm fine with handling all kinds of relationships well, such as friendships, but in BGR i sucks!....haha

One story my friend told me: A man travelled all over world to find his Perfect One to marry. One day he returned and his friend asked him, ' have you find your the one?'. 'Yes i did!', the man replied. Then his friend ask him again, ' then why i didn't see her and aren't you married then?' The man laughed and said: ' she said sorry to me and explained that she's also finding her perfect one. I had nothing to say and had to let go......'

Isn't this ironic? ZzzZzzZzz

RelationshipS?

2004-09-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

Looking that the title, well most of you would be able to guess wat i'm going to write for this episode of daily thoughts....LOL. Seen many people writing about how they feel about relationships and wat they think is the ongoing trend in it. Well i do have lots to share but i'm not sure how should i write them.
Here's some history of my love life( though i didn't get attached at all for 18 years). Must be real desperate.... you think so? haha : Okay, indeed i only like 2! person in this eighteen years of my life. Hmmm....got quite a bit of crushes but are gone faster then i thought. Haiz, thinking of it makes me sad, but nevertheless it's all part of me......so must preserve them in my mind. Good or bad, they are my memories and i will treasure them....hohoho...
Okay down to relationships.... As a matter of fact, i'm really confused. In the past, you can say that i'm very serious in everything i do. In other words i treat relationships really seriously. It's like if possible, my first Gf might well become my wife in the future. That's what i think in the past. But for now, i think it would be better to be involved in as many relationships as possible. Experience each and everyone of them as they come. Reason being, you would never know who is the right one for u. It might be hurting to know that your partner thinks of you as a prelude to his or her THE ONE. However as long as your partner treats you well and really give their best to make the relationship wonderful and enjoyable is basically enough. We all seek love from others dun we? Also, no one can be 100% sure from the beginning that the relationship will turn out okay and eventually leads to marriage. So we should try to learn as much as possible from every relationship and when we reach the right one i guess we will know. And that's what i think..... hohoho
Well, there's another question i'm thinking about. Is there really something called 'not a good match' in relationships? If you really love that person, should other things matter? Or should i say is there really someone in this world would well be our the ONE? I'm not sure, cos i believe it's never possible to find a perfect match in life. WE all have shortcomings, and our other half would have to bear with it. That's part of life isn't it?
Another thing would be.... What are the qualities that you look for in your GF or BF? Be it character wise, whether she's chio or is he handsome.....Does it really matter? Because in the end, both parties must see certain qualities in each other. If you like her, it doesn't mean anything AT ALL. Because you can't do anything if she has no interest at all. You can do watever you want, the result would still be the same. So basically, i guess, there are no 'trash' relationships... Cos it's really hard for two person to be together and to be willing to share each others' secrets, happiness and worries all together.
That is why, i would like to ask everyone who is in a relationship to really treasure what they have. Even if it didn't last long, it's a miracle you people actually got together. Does anyone here believe in Fate? I do.....

Maths Paper

2004-09-15T21:27:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....well while doing that paper....i thought ' so lucky, I can do most of the questions, hahaha A liao'.... But then the worst happened.....the last few questions are on the topics that i failed to study. So sad....thirty marks gone...lol. If i had studied vectors, can save 10 marks, if i had time to think more can save 7 marks for that trigo question, if i had studied complex number i could have saved another 12 marks. So blame who? blame myself loh.....hohoho.....

Think i study till siao liao. Remember my O level days, i never study before time. Always study one night before the exams. In the end can still get A1. Lol ....now study last minute means a guaranteed F. Sianzzz.....so actually now i feel really really tired. Never in my life i started studying so early. This fews days i getting more and more du lan dun know for wat. Come to think of it again, even if i get 3 As in the end, would i be happy? I dun know .... Guess everyone also dun know......

Wat siA~!

2004-09-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

woW ... today's chemistry paper 3 in my opinion is a joke sia. If you got study, confirm can get an A grade for that paper. It requires no thinking on our part. Though i say it's very easy, i couldn't complete the whole paper cos i didn't manage to finish all those topics that i'm supposed to study. Hope i can get 75 and above ? HAHAHA. Guess its possible ba....

Tml's Maths will be quite hard i guess. Cos i asked Miss Wong and she said Prelim questions are always harder then A levels....sianzzz. It will be a miracle if i can do well tml cos as i'm typing this, i still have quite a bit of topics uncompleted. ....

hohoho....cya tml....

Lazy Bum....

2004-09-05T19:12:00.000+08:00

HellO... it's me again. It's been a long time since i updated my blog. Hmm.....Cos i'm too lazy to think and pen down thoughts.... Everyday just eat slp, eat and slp. Nothing more. Didn't study much either. Just very sianz. In one weeks time it's prelimS . HOhohO. Surely i'm gonna DIE again if i dun start studying at full speed, which i guess is quite impossible. K That's all about my sch life.

Love Life? NO updates lah....stop being so nosey!! LOL.... ZzzZzZzzzZ....

Family DAy...

2004-08-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

Today is Sunday....means it family day too.... LOL! Woke up at around nine plus this morning. My sister suggested going to Mac since its been a long time we ate breakfast together at Mac. That's why we went to Kovan to experience it once again...lol. WE used the coupons of cos, if not it's a bit expensive. Drank two cups of tea, nothing special happened there. Wat's best is when we went to Heartland Mall to shop....

It's time for me to buy a new pair of sport shoes cos the one i'm wearing now cannot make it liao. Went to the second level, my sis bought a new pair of jeans and i bought my nikeAir shoe. Quite nice, feels very comfortable. But a bit expensive. However the point is, we were so lucky that i bought them today, cos there's a promotion. That is, every single recipt with at least 50 dollars spent is entitled to redeeming a cash voucher worth 18 dollars. This cash voucher can be used anywhere in the mall!!! WAt's more exciting is that this promotion is only valid for yesterday and today. Futhermore, there are only a total of 240 vouchers to be given out at time intervals : 1 pm and 6 pm each day, where 60 voucher are given out each time. WE were so lucky. Hohoho, after getting my hands on the vouchers, i went to sportslink to get a new badminton racket at only 23 dollars. So happy, still got a free bag. Nice right? hohoho.... WAt a good day sia. Finally i can play badminton again. (Lost my racket some years ago...)

That's also why i didn't study nor do anything beneficial today.... Die, tml got bio test and need to write essay. Plus need to do N03 bio paper....HOW???? haiz.z.... Lastly, why Li Jia Wei losT??? haiz....

A new starT?

2004-08-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

Hmm.....started to do more and more work compared to few weeks ago. Hope i'm starting to study and picking up the pace to prepare myself for the coming prelim exams. This time cannot say i hope to do well but to say, i will do well. Think that's more effective ya? LOL. Think so too. Can't sit down here and bluff myself anymore, we have to work to achieve something. Nothing comes free....Sianzz...This theory applies in everything. Even in relationships. Both sides have to 'work' to keep the relationship sweet and enjoyable. If one side expect to see everything coming from their other half, guess it wouldn't last long.

That Hsi En, becoming more and more hardworking sia. I see liao scared. Just went to his blog and saw him saying he's satisfied with how much he had done today. (Studying chem all the way till nine in the evening....in SCH LIB!!!).... LOL~! Guess if he sees this, i'm gonna get torn into pieces. What ever the case, everyone have different pick up speed. Guess mine slower. LOL. Did lots of chem yesterday and today. But think cannot compete with him la. He too PRO liao. Chem Rep lay....what you expect....??

It's been a long time since i write, so i intended to write a long one this time.....Let me see wat i have to say......

crap crap crap crap crap crap crap crap.....ya that's all... lol.....nitesZ...ZzzZzzZzZz. . .

TireD....

2004-08-13T20:25:00.000+08:00

Life these days sucks in my opinion. Nothing seems to go the right way. But i wouldn't fall down that easily considering all that i had gone through. Though i only lived for a short 18 years, i guess all the life experiences i had would help me last a long time....It's just that, now everyday seemed so stressed. Guess everyone is studying hard, i'm trying to do that too. Wonder if i can. The more i think of it, the more i get sick of it. HOw aR? die right?> haizz....Everynow and then have headache...don know wat the shit is happening. Even now when i'm writing this, i having a slight headache. Somemore i just had an afternoon nap, how come still can have headache....interesting sia....

NO matter wat....now A levels is the most important, clear this round and i would be happy. Dun know why but, felt that JC life is somewat the worst part of my life in this 18 years... No offence to all my Jc friends, i just feel that way...haiz...

FireWorks FestivaL~!

2004-08-09T13:39:00.000+08:00

Hohohoho~! It's too nice for anyone who likes fireworks to miss. It's just that there are too many people and there's a high probability that your view will be blocked by tall tress....lol. So get a good place and sit there and wait..... ME? i more clever. Me went with hong tat, kok liong, Chee Wi, Charleston, Mark and lastly Kenny. Hohoho, all my sec. friends. We managed to squeeze into the concert where 5566, Kone, Toro and many other singers celebrated our coming Singapore's 39 birthday. WE even had a countdown yesterday. It sounded like new year sia...lol. Wat's best is that from there i can see everything and hear everything. Cos the fire works is chronographed together with classical music.... So i saw the fireworks, listened to the classical music and enjoying, all at the same moment. Many who are not in the concert area couldn't hear the music. All they can hear is the sound of the fireworks....lol. Some couldn't even see the fireworks cos there are too many trees there liao....hohoho.

Well, that's all folks! Have a nice long week end......Buai~!

Haiz....

2004-08-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

Last year my class was actively involved in the National DAy Parade in sch. Remember there was this big big flag pole built by Xian Liang and we helped him get it up. We were also wearing our sch blazers that day cos we were flag bearers. Hohoho, had much fun then....
Last week, Mr Chew ( incharge of the parade) came to me and wanted me to join the contingent this year. I refused and he told me to go down and help them out, saying that i was the only one experience?!?!....However i didn't went down today, was to tired after lessons around 5:15 which was the time he asked me to report. He said something like teach them how to fold the flag and some other stuffs which i think is relatively easy. No point for me to go down. As i can recall, i didn't remember seeing any seniors coming down to help us. We were independent and organised. Guess we were able to do that cos majority were from my class. I trust that the JC1s this year should be able to do it ba.
Prelims are coming and i'm still not studying as hard as i should. Still slacking around, chatting online, play WarCraft 3 and reading all this shit..lol. Anyway this blog has served it purpose, to allow me to write and reflect on my everyday life. By the way, if anyone is shocked to see why my counter on the left jumped so fast is cos my Jc friends hands itchy, keep refreshing the page...lol. All the best to all reading this blog esp those taking A levels this year. JiA You~! nitesZ

Time waits for no man...

2004-07-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

Oh man....It's really hard to find any time to stop and rest even for a while. While we are still affected by the recent incident, things around us is moving. There's much to catch up actually. So we can't stop at all, but to continue our race of life that Xian liang had entrusted upon us. We shall not let him down ya? Guess he will bless us from above. Hohoho... So now really have to concentrate on our studies. Darn tiring, just finished reading and somewhat practised some questions on Ionic equilibra. Now i'm really mentally drained. No Mana left.
Everyone's life have a purpose. We are here for a purpose. Though Xian Liang had passed away, i believe that he had make his mark in everyone's lives. So it's not a sad thing, at least now he's free from sufferings. Us? We should carry on with wat we think is our purpose and make the best out of it.....

My dear friend....

2004-07-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

       Still couldn't believe that he already left us. It happened too quickly. Was with him last night...I tried to talk to him, he couldn't even hear or answer my call. When he did, he ask me what's the time now....i told him it was 1 am in the morning...then he said , " will you come on bed and accompany me for the night?" He was so afraid, he hugged the pillow next to him as tightly as possible...never thought of letting go....

       Didn't have enough time to know him more, didn't do enough to please him. I was with him ever since i entered TPJC. WE were in the same chinese class, same GP class....even after first three months, we were still in the same civics class. Fate brought us together yet force us to part. Dun you think it is a bit too cruel. He had so many things he would want to accomplish. So many things he would like to do. His favorite sport...rock climbing, he trained so hard last year, became the captain for the club. Almost everyday after school last year, me and vikram would accompany him to the bouldering wall to climb abit. Had so much fun then. He always wanted to take part and win something in this year's rock climbing competition, that's why he worked hard, so hard.... When he was diagnosed with cancer, and hopsitalised....we went to visit him. During our first visit...he said, 'damn, all that fitness level that i have attained had gone to waste ...' We felt sad for him. But we thought he might still be able to climb and come back to school the next year. He's always this strong...that's why we didn't worry too much, cos we know he would make it.

         What stunned me the most was what he said to me yesterday. I didn't know what to do at all. Seeing him suffering, couldn't hear, see and speak to us, i really got no idea what to do. He fought hard ever since Jan this year, it been 7 months. Time really fly, and of this 7 months i only visited him 5 times. He was so delighted to see us, always so much to say, so much to talk about....

      Everyone walk into and out of our lives..... and in the process, they always leave something behind for us. It's up to us to see things in different angles. Though he is physically gone, some part of him will always remain in our hearts......

Let's PraY....

2004-07-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

To all of my friends...if you are reading this, do pray for my JC buddy Xian Liang. I just got a sms from XJ that this friend of mine is in critical condition. No one would have expected this to happen. He is always this strong, always trying to do his best in everything. Here's something that he wrote some months ago and i thought i should share it with everyone here:

I fell down in the race of life

it caused excruciating pain

my dreams were shattered my goals were knifed

but what's to stop me try again?

i'll pick myself up and start to run and never rest until im done

i need to rush, i need to hurry i've got a long way to close the gap

till sweat makes my eyes all blurry

i'll not stop nor ease my step now i'm way behind

i've lost my lead but i'm still in line and won't lose my head

what did u expect me to do, to sit and cry?

to bawl my eyes out until i die?

no sir no, i ain't doing that

where i'm going i'm already late

where does it all end u might wonder

it's where i fall still and move no further

to let the younger stronger pass as i fade to death upon the grass

but it's not now, it's not, my time is yet to come my journey is yet over, barely has it begun you're running this race too, you know, this race of human life

stop and enjoy the scenery or you'll be past in a blink of an eye

yeah there are rocks and stones along the way but don't we all face them every day?

choose your steps wisely or you might just stumble and fall

one wrong move and you might just lose it all

this race ain't about who comes out top but how we run it until we stop

take heed my friends, run like the wind

i hope we're all in the same place right at the end

TodAy...

2004-07-24T21:13:00.000+08:00

Similar to last week, went to my sister's workplace and had lunch together... Returned home and sleep all the way. Woke up to eat dinner...lol. REally like pig sia. Lol. To the person whom gave a comment on my previous post, i thankyou. Cos now i know people are reading my blog and benefitting from it. It sure did give me more reason to share my life expriences with everyone here at this nice webby.
hohoho, actually nothing much to write today...however, be sure to come take a look once in a while....there might be something just right for you...hohoho...

EveryOne! take a look ...hohoho

2004-07-20T17:48:00.000+08:00

           Hohoho, it's me again. Today wouldn't be talking about myself....But something that i would like everyone to take heed.
           Whether you are now in a JC, a poly, or even still in secondary school, always ask yourself, is wat you are doing now something that you really want to do? I asked myself this question this morning and the answer that came to my mind was no. Felt that somehow i joined the wrong CCA in my present JC. I was glad that i was in NPCC and Prefectorial Board in secondary school. I'm currently in bowling and science club. Though bowling is my favourite sport, i didn't get much fun out of the trainings. The club wasn't united enough. We never had outings or trainings during holidays...all we were told to do was train ourselves. Sad hor....? Then science club, i'm the president...hohoho...though i didn't think i did a good job, i was always put down by our teacher in charge. She made many empty promises until a point where i can't take it anymore...even when my team won a bronze award in a national competition...we received little recognition. Until now, the school population still know nothing about it. Us? Our certificates of Distinction is still in our teacher's hands... she said she will present them to us last week...Until now, i don't see anything or even hear anything from her.
           HOhoho, seems like i'm complaining....lol. I apologise. But my point is, whatever you do now or in the future, make sure that as time passes by, when you think about what you had done in the past, you would be smiling. And always remember, when you want to gain something, you will always have to 'trade'(give up something) for it. An example would be, although i have gained lots of insight of being a leader in my secondary school, i was too occupied to have time to play Basketball , Soccer or LAN games, playing guitar and many many more. That's why i sucked at those things.
          THat's why my friends, choose wisely, know what you want in life and work towards it. Never look back, never have any regrets.

Not as sianzz day....

2004-07-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

Hohoho, finally today is a not a as sianzz day. Eat lunch with family and went over to my sister's workplace: Ang Mo Kio NTUC fairprice. Stunned heh? same sentiments here...lol. She's working as a Darlie toothpaste promoter. Hohoho, interesting isn't it? After visiting her, helped my dad carry some of the things they bought over at NTUC -- my mom's flavourite place...lol.

After i reach home, went out immediately to meet vikram and go marine parade play pool. Sianzz, today damn sway, keep losing... lol. No lar cos vikram PRO...LOL....hohoho, it's up to you guys to believe. AFter that, we went to suntec eat dinner. Ate JApanese food...unagi(eel) set. Not bad, the standards are rising ....hohoho. Then we go walk walk...nothing much....walk all the way to merlion !!!! LOL..... stood there and talk crap, real crap....talking about the future of our dear Earth and what's likely going to happen after we are gone....lol. Went on to talk about some PERSONal stuff....which i won't elaborate here...hohoho... Then ... home sweet home la. WAt you expect? LOL....that's all for today....ZzzZzzZzz....

Finally it's over....hohoho

2004-07-15T19:27:00.000+08:00

Just finish my chinese oral exam today...hohoho...Finally chinese has come to an end for me. Waited for a while for my turn, lucky got XJ beside me, talk crap to relax...hohoho. But in the end i still startle over some parts when reading the relatively short passage. The conversation part i should have done reasonably okay. All in all hope i can get a grade B3 and above. Should be able to lah...hopefully :)
Today sch very slack, so nothing much either. Except that fact that i'm still having block nose. Sianzzz...hohoho...time for games...buai people!

Something for everyone...

2004-07-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

Hello, it's me again...

Heard this thingy over the radio. Personally i think wat the DJ said was absolutely right! Here it goes:

'It's really hard for anyone to let go of the person they love , but they have to because no one knows if the person whom they are waiting patiently for has already started on another new love ...'

Very sad hor. Just as what she said, what's over is over. Keep waiting only means one thing....you are wasting your time...haiz. How i wish that this isn't a fact. But a fact is a fact, no use running away from it. So friends, if you know that you are waiting for someone whom won't be doing the same for you...proceed! K? That's all today...nitesZ. GOt sch tomorrow....ZzzZzzZzz

siCk...

2004-07-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

Sianzz....today woke up with a sore throat plus running nose. DAmn disturbing, have to keep using tissue paper to stuck that running tap of mine... Well, againg nothing much to write today. SHould have started writing during the holidays. Then i would have much more to write on, cos everyday is different. But school days are the same everyday. Same things happen every now and then...sianzzz. Study !!! hohoHO

StunnED!

2004-07-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

Got back my GP paper today. Interestingly, I got an E8. WAh....wat an unbelievable grade. First time ever, lesser then 40! Shan't elaborate on that anymore. Today, nothing much as expected...Got many free periods and did nothing but drawing stupid stuffs with terence and all in the library. Today is also the first time I did my biology practical seriously. Think i'm sub-consciously knowing that the A levels are coming and I have to get down to work....(got B, E and F for common test).
Better start studying, if not , like wat wang chi always say, 'later die young'. Parents also KB me for getting an F. Still secretly told my sis,'think your brother might not be able to make it to University'. SIANZZZ....eh, i'm going to become a research scientist lay! How can!!! They are so unfair, this is definitely a sweeping statement! Hohoho! That's all ... for today's happenings!...

Trying out something new

2004-07-11T16:06:00.000+08:00

Hohoho, got really bored at home. Staring into emptiness and thinking, 'wat should I do next...' That is why i decided to start this 'diary-like' thingy. Hope this thingy can help me go over wat i actually did each day and to spent sometime reflecting on them.
Well, nothing special today....mom & dad went to Suntec for a walk while my sister went to work. Sianzz, alone at home. Wat's the most sian thing is to eat lunch alone....Hope they will be back for dinner. Planned to study some maths today, dun really know if i would really sit down and study later. But first, i should go take a nap....hohoho. The thing that i'm best at - 'Slacking'... That's all for my very first post....